I realize now that how I have been brought up has only prepared me for the first 30 years of my life. I've been brought up to be independent, patient, kind, adaptable to new environments but unyielding to peer pressure, have a thirst for knowledge and willingness to share or even teach, constantly seeking self-improvement, to learn Chinese values but not be bound by them, and have the courage to pick up and move somewhere new even if it's on the other side of the world. These qualities have helped me get through 18 years of school, 6 years of work, and almost 4 years of marriage. I could have done them better, but the hardships and failures have a lesson of their own and I would not trade them away. I thank many people for being a part of my life and helping me become the person I am today.
Sadly, what I have now realized is all that I have learned will not nearly be enough to get me through the next 30+ years. Who will I become and how shall I do it? Wife, hopefully mother, and with or without a career? I don't even know where to start, what to change, and how to prepare. Shall I find a few role models and emulate? Who do you look up to and how can I relate? Or shall I pave a new road and find my own way? I see only bits and pieces of my future, of the person I could be, and as long as she is loved by you I think that future is all right with me.
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